I started this blog with good intentions.
To share my experiences in hopes of letting others know they are not alone.
To discover answers about life, because I see more clearly when I write.
And to ground myself, by making this blog my point of contact. My touch down to reality.
But over these past three years I have written sporadically.
My intentions, seemingly long gone.
It's why today I feel this need to step back and ask myself,
Why shouldn't I simply stop? Do I actually have something to say? Do my words make a difference? Or is my writing, in all honesty, really just for me?
Because I figure if I can't blog regularly, if I am not excited to write and share, then why continue?
Why not instead pick up a notepad and pen, and journal? Like I used to in high school... with no fear of being heard, nor judged, and with no need to edit my words. It's not only safer, but would give me everything I need...
Or would it?
Of course there's a part of me that whole heartedly retorts, "what's the fun in being safe?!"
Why keep my thoughts under lock and key? Why not go deeper? Be braver? And maybe even explore the notion of making a difference, in some small way? Start my own ripple?
So being that I am full of questions, today I am choosing to take an intentional pause from blogging. To fine tune my focus. And to ultimately,
Find my reason to write.
But rest assured, when I do...
I will be back!