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Ruth Nicholas

Final Straw

Let the climb begin...

My husband and I rarely fight these days but with fists cocked for weeks now, my time had arrived.

In the Walgreen's parking lot no less.

I stared into our bag of purchases, absolutely flabbergasted. Frantically I searched for the receipt, yelling unapolagetically,

Who spends $89 in Walgreens?!

It made no sense. A bag of candy and . . .

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Posted in: my journal

September 01, 2015

Darkest Hour

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In your darkest hour.

When hope is illusive and dreams unreachable. When your window to the world is tear smeared and everything you do ends in vein.

Pull down the shutter. Shut out the world.

Breathe.

Rest with your internal rhythm. Be with your pain. Ride your wave of consciousness and be present without resistance.

Live that moment . . .

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August 19, 2015

The Inbetween

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Today I am practicing,

Patience.

Living in the in-between takes a lot of patience. But there is no such thing as "happily ever after" without some trial and tribulation. Therefore I'm learning to embrace these moments, capture and live them fully. Because soon they will be gone.

I wonder, as I often do these days,

What will . . .

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August 12, 2015

A New Adventure

Down the rabbit hole I go

New chapter, new adventure...

These past few months have been like falling down a bottomless rabbit hole, hoping to one day land and start our new life.

My hubby and I moved from New Jersey to New Orleans to work on a movie. We uprooted our lives, he quit his job, and we left our apartment vacant. Our intention to set up shop in Louisiana. . . .

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Posted in: my journal

August 05, 2015

The Point

As we blindly march forward

The other day I stumbled across this woman's blog and as I began to read, her words immediately lured me in.

Her perspective, the way she viewed life, felt eerily familiar. To the point she seemed like my replica. Though a bit older she was also a visual artist, loved to write, take photos, was whim driven and extremely passionate about . . .

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Posted in: life muses

March 13, 2015

Black Sheep in Disguise

The resistance inside...

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I have always felt like the black sheep.

Born to a Moroccan father, raised in a Caucasian family, insanely shy as a child, yet passionately loud when intervening family fights. I could never quite figure out who I was, or who I was meant to be.

But over time I've come to realize that to a certain extent, we are all black sheep (or at . . .

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February 17, 2015

Defeat is just the Beginning

Stoking the internal fire

I hated history class as a kid!

Whenever possible I avoided watching period pieces like the plague. I couldn't relate. But as I've gotten older my outlook on history has changed, especially as it links to my fascination for time and moments. It gauges growth and change, and I respect it now as a valuable learning tool.

Last night my . . .

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Posted in: life muses

February 08, 2015

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